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Can't take it... Morning sickness is terrible, striking at any time of the day, especially bad in the mornings and afternoons...

And my breasts feel sooooo sore...

And there's 1001 work stuff to clear...

And we have yet to decide on solemnisation venue!

Also worrying if our HDB loan will be approved.

I am a sick and stressed mommy-to-be.

The Worst Thing About Being Pregnant...

IS... ...

Not licensed to smoke!

To me, that is the worst thing that has happened to me since pregancy. My cigs have been confiscated, and friends do not allow me to smoke. At all.

I know very well that this is all for the good of baby, but to have to suddenly quit at once is horrible. The urge comes every now and then, especially after meals! After each meal, I'll always feel as though there's something that I have not done. Gahh.

Guess I will have to bear with it for the sake of the little one.

Baby, now you know how much Mommy loves you :)

Confirmation

So, I went to a GP last night, and confirmed the test kit results. Yup, am in my 4th week. Somehow I'm less nervous now, and preparing myself for what is to come. Like I predicted, it will a typhoon 2010 - promotion @ work, unexpected pregnancy, rush to get married, and owing a house. Sounds like a lot of work to do, but I believe we can do it.

Breaking the news to my mother wasn't so tough. She was quite cool about it, in fact, asking me to make our own plans and settle down. As for my father... Well, I'll see about it.


We have decided to hold our solemnisation after the chinese new year, which means sometime in March. Currently finding out more information from Yum Cha about their package as I am quite keen to hold it there. Seems Tapestry Room at CSC Bukit Batok is not a bad choice too, shall find some time to do a quick recce. Besides venue, we also need to start thinking about the dress, wedding bands, guest list and photography. Followed by applying for HBD loan and hunting for a house, maybe even renovations. So much work! Shall try not to stress myself out.


Symptoms (continued from previous post):

• Waking up in the middle of the night (for no reason) and feeling very frustrated! I have no idea why this is happening.

At 4 weeks...

If my iphone app is correct, I am in my 4th week of pregnancy (will be seeing a doctor tonight to confirm the test results).

Symptoms:

• Period overdue by 3 days, which triggered the alarm as mine has always been quite regular
• Nausea, especially after lunch and dinner
• Higher night body temperature
• The slightest hint of cramps, which fooled me into thinking that my period would be coming
• Tender breasts and acne break-out (just like the usual PMS symptoms)
• Pangs of hunger especially at night
• All-day tiredness
• Increased urge to pee

So far it's all endurable, except for the nausea and the pee part which is starting to get on my nerves. I've been waking up in the middle of the night! Affecting my usually good, long sleep.

This is all so nerve-wrecking and exciting at the same time.

I only pray to have a healthy baby.

The longest minute...

That must have been the longest minute most woman encounter. As the line grew visible...

Right, so it's confirmed. I'm officially unwed and pregnant. A night's sleep(less-ness) later, there are far too many thoughts running through my mind, and I'm not quick enough to jot down each one. The top ones are probably:

1. Abortion is definitely out of the question. I do not want to go through that same pain again.


2. Get married? He's willing, but am I really sure that he is the one I want for life? Sometimes I think yes, but sometimes I feel otherwise. And this leads to the next question.


3. Get married when? How? We definitely don't have the money and time to hold a lavish dinner. Simple ROM? Even though we have talked about it before, we don't have any concrete plans. Which means we have to hold a whirlwind ROM, from scratch.


4. How do I break the news to my family? Especially my father? To put it mildly, they are not on good terms. I don't even know if he will turn up for my wedding.


5. Where will we stay? He's currently staying at my place. We have to get our own place, but how long will that take? We definitely have to settle this before the little one pops out.

I have now a thousand and one questions in my mind, but he seems comparatively relaxed. In fact he is quite thrilled about it. Like I told him, the little one is back to find us, 4 years later.

Ultimately, I know for sure that - Baby, Mommy will not let you go this time.